Don't Close Your Eyes
-by: the Yarnspinner-
the_yarnspinner@yahoo.com
A Sekkushiaru Roman
featuring characters from the anime "Sailor Moon"* * * * * * * * * * * *
NOTE: This yarn is a songfic, inspired by the song "Don't Close Your Eyes", performed by the late Keith Whitley, and written by Bob McDill. The story takes place in the same continuity as "A New Song".
* * * * * * * * * * * *As he swept the grounds of the Hickawa Temple, Chad Kumada's eyes kept drifting to the raven-haired beauty who had captured his heart. He had never believed in love at first sight until that day he had woken up on the steps of the Temple grounds to behold the most beautiful young woman he had ever seen, her long black hair, appearing somehow in the sunlight to have streaks of purple, her face like an angel, and her fiery spirit that commanded attention, all captivating him utterly. Later, when he had seen her wearing something more flattering than her temple maiden's outfit, he discovered that she had an exquisite body to match. If there had been any flaw in her seeming perfection, it was that she was young, just fifteen, and six years his junior. But he didn't care. If he had to wait, he would do so. In fact, waiting was easier in a way, since there remained one fear he had not yet managed to conquer during his training under her grandfather. That was his fear of telling her how he actually felt.
Yes, Rei Hino had captured his heart, but for quite some time seemed to be totally unaware of it. She didn't even seem to particularly enjoy having him around, except to pawn her chores off on him from time to time. Finally, he had left the Temple when he thought Rei was in love with another guy. Actually, Chad had seen her with another girl, Alex Tenou, who dresses like a guy most of the time. Although Rei had done nothing to stop Chad from leaving, she did come after him.
Several attempts at developing a closer relationship had washed out. Rei carried this pager that seemed to go off at the most inconvenient times, sending her rushing away with hardly a word. Finally, deciding that desperate measures were called for, Chad had actually put away his slacker/surfer-boy image to lay on the charm for a few evenings, letting her see parts of himself he hadn't shown anyone in several years. It seemed to be working, until he noticed that he didn't appear to have her full attention. At first he thought he was crazy, but Rei almost seemed to be focused on someone else.
He had turned to Rei's friends for information. Mina and Lita had informed him that Rei had dated Darien for a while, and that Darien had seen her strictly as a friend while Rei saw him as much more. They were vague about the details, but insisted it had ended some time ago. Now Chad knew who the other person was. Clearly, Rei was not over Darien.- - - - - - - - - -
Chad's family owned an apartment in the city, which they never used. Despite his messy break with them, he found the apartment a convenient retreat when he needed space. He had taken Rei out for dinner, and then they had come here.
Rei had been surprised by what she had learned of Chad's background, but was coming to be used to it. Dinner had been pleasant, and as they sat together, he softly kissed her cheek. A perfect gentleman, she knew he would not go much farther if she didn't show any sign of wanting to. Trying to forget her own ghosts, she turned and pressed her lips to his.
The fire of her kisses could match that of her personality he had found, as she quickly took his breath away. Yet, a vague feeling of unease remained, and as he paused, he saw her eyes were closed, and her attention elsewhere. 'Damn it,' he thought.* I know you loved him a long time ago.Rei felt him pull away, slowly opening her eyes to find a look of frustration on his face, as she realized that her imagination had again been picturing someone else.
* Even now in my arms, you still want him I know.
"This is pointless, Rei!" he declared, the hurt plain in his voice. "I'll say it straight out, because I can't bear not to anymore. I'm completely dead gone over you, but I can't be just a stand-in for somebody else. And you'll never get over him if you keep hanging on to old memories."
"You don't understand..."
"Oh, I think I do," he said, cutting her off. "I've lost girlfriends before. Usually I dumped them because all they saw in me was the heir to the Kumada fortune. You open yourself up to someone only to find they don't feel the same way. It hurts, Rei. But you have to move on."
"And just who are you to be telling me how to run my life?" she demanded, anger flaring in her eyes.
Chad held his ground. "I'm someone who cares about you, Rei," he said firmly. "And I'm not trying to tell you how to run your life. But you can't let your life be controlled by a memory. You have to move on."
"You think so?" she asked softly, somewhat surprised and impressed that he hadn't caved at her first flash of anger.
"Of course," he insisted. "In fact, I would have expected, with your strength and determination, that you already would have done so."
"Yeah, well, he was something special."
"You're something special, Rei. Too special to waste yourself moping over somebody who is totally devoted to your best friend."
Rei looked up, stunned that he knew who she was carrying a torch for.
"But the time has come," he told her. "One of us has to move on. If it won't be you, then it will have to be me."
"What do you mean?" she asked, feeling a tightness in her chest.
"I mean if you aren't prepared to give us a real try, then I'm leaving the Temple, and I'm leaving Tokyo, and this time I won't be coming back," he declared.
"You'd do that?" She saw the determination in his eyes, which answered her question before he could speak.
"Yes. I won't keep competing with a memory, Rei," he said. "I don't want to lose you. You're the most wonderful person to ever come into my life, but if it's just going to keep on like this, then I have to move on."
"What do you want?"
"I want you to stay here longer," he said. "It doesn't have to be a sleep-together thing if you don't want that, but I want us to give our relationship a try. Just Rei and Chad. No one else."* But darling this time let your memories die.She nodded, and he moved closer, kissing her lips again. Her arms slid up around his shoulders, holding him tight. As her eyes started to close, he pulled back.
* When you hold me tonight, don't close your eyes.
"No one else, remember?" he said.
"I remember," she said softly.
He kissed her once more.
"So, why did you come after me, that time I said I was leaving?" he asked. He already knew the answer, but wanted to hear her say it.
"Uhm, well, I guess, ahm, it was because the other girls said you were leaving because of me, and I couldn't have you go just because of some misunderstanding," she said.
" 'Some misunderstanding'? Is that all?"
She sat there silently for over a minute. "No, I guess not," she finally said. "I guess I do like having you around."
He smiled. "I just adore being around you, Rei. All the girls I used to know were so shallow and superficial. They were all either scheming something, or were too airheaded to ever keep more than one thought at a time." He gently took hold of her hand while lightly kissing her cheek. "But you come right out and say what you think. You have a brain in you head, and you're not afraid to use it. There's a fire in you that says you go straight to the point and don't put up with nonsense. After growing up around people who never said what they meant, it is tremendously refreshing. And of course, it doesn't hurt that you're also drop-dead gorgeous."
Her eyes fell to the floor and she turned away. Ordinarily she wasn't embarrassed by compliments, although she didn't place much stock in them either. Chad's remark somehow seemed different. "You think so?"
"Of course I do," he said, drawing her into his arms and kissing her.
A fire swelled within her as the kiss became mutual, as their tongues caressed, and they embraced with a desperate passion.
Chad swept his hands along her sides and back, not wanting to go too far, yet loving the feel of her body. This kiss was a hopeful sign.* Don't close your eyes. Let it be me.She sighed as their mouths separated. "Why?" she asked. "Why did you do all this, even after the way I've treated you?"
* Don't pretend it's him in some fantasy.
* Darling, just once, let yesterday go.
* You'll find more love than you've ever known.
* Just hold me tight when you love me tonight,
* And don't close your eyes.* Maybe I've been a fool, holding on all this time,"Because I love you, Rei," he said, his eyes aglow with love and sincerity. "Your grandfather taught me not to be ruled by my fears, and to make use of the blessings life sends me. From you, I learned about determination. I know you would never give up on your friends, and I learned that I could never give up on you."
* Lying here in your arms, knowing he's in your mind.
Tears welled in her eyes. Chad didn't seem anything like Darien, and yet she'd already learned things about him that showed her the real Chad was a lot different from the image he portrayed. She still couldn't imagine herself crying her eyes out over Chad the way she had many times in private over Darien. But Chad said he loved her. He offered her his heart. He simply wanted to know if she would accept it. It was a terrifying decision. She would have so lightly said yes if Darien had asked her, but now she realized just what Chad was saying, and what it must have taken for him to admit the full depth of his feelings for her, risking rejection.
Chad watched her, seeing the emotions playing across her face. He felt a tightness in his chest, suddenly realizing he was holding his breath. Her tears made him want to take her in his arms, but he knew she had to work this out for herself. He wanted them both to know this was right.* But I keep hoping some day that you'll see the lightHis silent prayer took on almost a quality of desperation. He didn't want to face the prospect of having to follow through on his threat to leave. 'Please, let her choose the present and future, not the past.'
* Let it be tonight. Don't close your eyes.
Looking up, Rei saw the anguish on his face. Now seriously considering the prospect that he might leave, she remembered how she had felt when she went after him the last time, and when the daimon had attacked him. The fire of Sailor Mars had been nothing compared with what had been blazing in her heart. She also remembered how Chad had tried to protect her, both when Zoisite had turned her grandfather into a youma, and when Katsi had attacked the temple. She leaned forward and caressed his cheek.
"I think the proverb says 'A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step'," she said.
He smiled, bringing her into his arms once more as she kissed him warmly.
"I can handle a step at a time," he whispered, before kissing her again. "As long as we are moving."
Passion swelled within them both. As he felt it in her kiss, his hands swept across her back, only a deliberate effort stopping his fingers from unzipping her dress. His painfully hard and erect manhood continually reminded him of his longing for her, but he fought against it, knowing he had to be prepared for the possibility that she would not be ready.
As the kiss took her breath away, Rei felt her blood boil and a warm wetness swell within her. Seeing the same fire in his eyes, she took one of his hands and placed it on her breast.
"Rei, this isn't something to play games about now," he said, fighting desperately to hold himself under control. "Don't do this if you don't really mean it."
She pressed his hand more tightly to her breast. "You said it yourself. I do and say what I mean," she said.
As she pressed her lips to his again, moaning passionately, he pressed his fingers into her breast, and slid his other hand up along her thigh. In only moments, he brought both hands around to her back and hurriedly unzipped her beautiful, sexy red dress. He drew her to her feet, sliding the dress down. After stepping out of the dress, she removed his tie and began unbuttoning his shirt. Her fingers trembled as she found her physical hunger growing stronger. With his shirt gone, she pulled off his t-shirt then reached for his pants, sliding them down.
He stepped out of his pants and pulled away his socks, then drew her close, running his fingers through her soft dark hair. The feel of her body so close and full of passion was better than he had ever dreamed. He pressed his lips to hers, letting their tongues dance together.
"Rei, I love you so much," he whispered, before kissing her again.* Don't close your eyes. Let it be me.As the passion grew ever stronger within her, so too did the joy in her heart. She'd never known a love such as Chad was offering her. She clung to him tightly.
* Don't pretend it's him in some fantasy.
"Oh, Chad," she sighed.
His heart leapt as she sighed his name. He unfastened her bra, and tossed it aside. His breath caught at the site of her breasts, full and beautiful, the pink nipples already hard and firm. Leaning down, he pressed his lips to her nipple, sucking it first softly and then with growing intensity.
She cried out as waves of pleasure swept through her and her insides came to full boil. Her panties were soaked, and she could now feel her wetness trickling down her thighs. Chad switched to her other breast, sucking the nipple ravenously. His hand seized the first, and pinched that nipple, just as his teeth pressed into the other. Her entire body shook as she threw her head back and screamed.
He crouched down in front of her, kissing her abdomen. His fingers slid into the waistband of her panties, and he quickly pulled down the small scrap of pink fabric, leaving her completely naked. The aroma of her arousal was unmistakable. Drawing her legs open, he began to lick up the honey that was running down her thighs. "Oh, gods! She tastes so good!' he thought.
"Yes! Oh, please!" she gasped.
He sat her back down on the couch, with her legs spread open, then moved between them again. His tongue brushed gently over her soft folds, lapping up her honey as it came out of her.* Darling, just once, let yesterday go.She gasped, simply overwhelmed. No one had ever made her feel this way. She slid her hands over the back of his head, running her fingers through his hair and trying to push him in deeper. Suddenly, she felt his tongue begin to spread her folds open and slip inside her. Automatically, her hips jerked up, seeking more from him. As his tongue reached deeper, he pressed his lips tightly around her opening. A sucking sensation swept over her as she realized he was drinking her in. She cried his name as her hands tightened convulsively on his head.
* You'll find more love than you've ever known.
He reveled in her taste as he drank down her honey, while his tongue teased the insides of her nether lips, then reached deeper, caressing her vagina. Thrilled to hear her crying his name, he was certain she was too far gone with passion to be able to keep up a pretense. Drawing back, he rubbed his tongue over her aroused jewel.
Rei screamed as her body was just set on fire. She knew this spot from occasionally pleasuring herself, but then it had never felt so intense. He licked her there again, and her entire body locked up in the most powerful orgasm she had ever known.
Chad braced himself as the floodgates opened, and she poured herself out into his mouth.
As she struggled to regain her breath, he moved up over her. She pulled him tight against her. "That was so incredible," she sighed. "Thank you."
"I should be thanking you," he said, with a grin. "But we're not done yet."
Before she could ask what he meant, he lifted her off the couch and set her down on the floor. Immediately, her eyes focused on the form of his hardness inside his boxers. With hardly a thought, she pulled his shorts down and took his manhood in her hands, marveling at how large it had grown. She felt it throb as she slowly stroked a finger over it. Holding it more firmly, she stroked it harder and faster with her full hand, feeling his entire body tremble and hearing him moan with raw pleasure.
"Oh yes, Rei!" he gasped. "That's so good!"
Her lips brushed his tip, then he felt her take him into her mouth and suck and lick him like a lollipop. He groaned as he felt ready to explode right then and there.
She pulled away for a moment to gasp for breath, hearing him moan with frustration. Leaning in, she kissed one of his thighs, then licked his scrotum. As she ran her tongue along the full length of his shaft, she was still amazed that he had done all of this for her, and had so completely swept her off her feet. Reaching the tip, she took him deep in her mouth again, now finding she could taste some of his fluid on her tongue. Liking the taste, she began to suck more intently as he softly gasped her name again and again. The tremors and spasms in his body were growing more intense, and she could taste more of it.
Chad knew he was at the brink, his sensation reduced to just her fantastic mouth and tongue on his throbbing member. His hands rubbed along her back, outside the control of his overwhelmed brain, as was his voice, which could manage nothing more than wordless gasps.
He thrust forward once more and Rei suddenly found his fluid streaming into her mouth and down her throat in powerful spurts. Overcoming the urge to gag, she instead resumed sucking him, drawing in every last bit. Going limp, he slumped down in front of her, sliding his arms around her. She held him tightly, feeling his strength quickly return, and looking forward to what was still to come.* Just hold me tight when you love me tonight,Chad kissed her, tasting himself in her mouth, and enjoying the soft feel and beautiful scent of her body. Rising to his feet, he walked with her into his bedroom. After turning down the bed, he pulled a condom from the night table drawer. Rei took it from him and slipped it on over his again fully erect member, her action and the look in her eyes making it clear that she wanted this as much as he did.
* And don't close your eyes.
She lay down on the bed and he moved above her, lowering himself between her spread legs. Her hands slid up over his shoulders, holding him tightly. His mouth came down over hers and she slid her tongue up into him. As the warmth of his body enveloped her, she felt his penis press into her nether lips. She moaned happily into his mouth.
Chad slid himself through her lips, working himself up very slowly. Rei moaned and cried in delight, as her hips thrust upward trying to take him deeper. Finally, he gave in, driving himself forward as her hips rose again.
Her body tensed and she cried out as a searing pain flashed through her. Knowing what it meant, she clung to him tightly.
"Are you alright?" he asked, hating the thought of causing her pain.
"Yes," she gasped. "Please, don't stop."
He could see she was still in pain, slowing his pace in the hope that it might be a little easier for her.
"Rei, I love you so much," he whispered, before kissing her lips.
She found comfort in his warmth over her, and soon realized passion was overwhelming the pain. His slow, steady motions were stroking into her aroused womanhood, sending tremendous waves of raw pleasure sweeping through her.
He heard the change in her soft moans and cries, and could see it in her eyes. Pressing his lips to hers, he embraced this young woman he loved so much, as his manhood enjoyed the loving embrace of her womanhood.
The fire within her grew still more intense as their conjoined bodies moved together. Clutching him tightly with her arms and legs, she rolled up through her hips to meet his next thrust. She was completely oblivious to any pain as indescribable pleasure washed over both of them, and she cried out his name in love and joy.
For Chad it was the sweetest sound he had ever heard, combined with the most exquisite physical and emotional pleasure. He'd had sex before, but this was the first time he had truly made love, being with someone he truly loved, and who loved him. After years adrift, he had found meaning in his life. He kissed her deeply, just as their bodies thrust together once more.
Their pace increased. She felt him showering her face with soft kisses as his manhood throbbed deep inside her. As pleasure increased within her, she moved ever closer to the edge. A sharp motion shook her hard as waves of delight tore through her. A second thrust plunged her over the edge into the pure uncontrolled ecstasy of orgasm.
Chad's ears rung as she screamed his name over and over, while he teetered on the edge himself, her muscles pulling hard on his member. Her orgasm finally starting to fade, he could relax his self-control, pulling back and giving her a moment to catch her breath. With his first thrust, he could see the fire bright in her eyes as she clutched him tightly.
"Oh yes, Chad," she gasped, her body still hungering for him. Her hips rose to meet his next thrust, driving him into her still harder and bringing groans from both of them.
He draped himself over her, bringing more of his larger physical size into play, and simply covering her. Her arms swept across his back, while he responded to her increasing pace. His own longing still demanded release. With each thrust he could feel himself moving closer to the brink.
Rei sensed it as well, holding him tightly with her arms and legs, while taking his beautiful manhood deep inside her. Each movement was sending her higher and higher.
"A little more... Just a little more," he groaned.
"Yes!... It's so... good!" she whispered breathlessly.
He felt just ready to burst as they moved together. Each time, though, their bodies seemed to be holding out for more, as the passionate fire within them both grew ever hotter.
Thrilled but breathless, Rei had lost all track of time. Finally, as they thrust upward yet again, she was vaguely aware of a loud groan from him and felt his whole body spasming. Almost immediately, her body clamped down hard in the throes of orgasm, wiping out all other awareness as she cried his name in purest ecstasy.
It seemed almost an eternity before their spasms released, allowing them to fall limp and gasp for breath. Chad kissed her softly.
"Rei, that was sooo beautiful," he whispered. "Just like the rest of you."
"Thank you, Chad. For everything," she answered quietly. "I do love you."
He smiled with joy. "I love you, more than anything."
Feeling able to move, he carefully slipped himself out of her and disposed of his condom. As he snuggled close to her, he kissed her again.
"Will you stay the night?" he asked.
"I'd love to," she said. "But what's grandpa going to say?"
"Probably not much," Chad said with a grin. "Before we left I told him that I was going to be staying in town tonight and that it was my understanding you wanted me to drop you at Lita's."
"You have a devious mind under all that hair," she said.
"So, you'll stay?"
"Of course I will." She embraced him tightly, pressing her lips to his. "Just don't plan on much sleep tonight."
He tickled her ribs. "Actually, I wasn't."* Just hold me tight when you love me tonight,* * * * * * * * * * * *
* And don't close your eyes.
NOTE: Some may think I've goofed on Rei's age by saying she was fifteen when Chad first met her. Actually, I haven't. In "Interlude", Sexylyon made Serena a year older. Since I have carried on that continuity in "A New Song" and this yarn, I've chosen to add a year to all the girls to make things fit. Lastly, for newcomers to Sailor Moon fanfics, Alex Tenou is Haruka Ten'ou, a.k.a. Sailor Uranus. Credit author Mark Berger for the name Alex ("Alexandra"), which I vastly prefer over "Corinn", the Irwin/DiC name.Always remember, good gentles, that a yarnspinner works from and within existing legends and stories. The characters of "Sailor Moon" belong to others. In spinning my yarns, I do not seek to infringe on their rights of ownership, but merely to join with other fans to spread the legend still further. "The moonlight carries a message of love." Enjoy.
-06.11.1999